Are you repeatedly drawn into conversations or arguments that seemto go nowhere? Do you feel compelled to respond to accusations that you know are false? Do you feel like you have to justify your behavior or choices? Do you have a difficult family member who picks fights or gaslights?
Codependent relationships often feel stuck. Unhealthy communication and relationship patterns get set, and we seem to replay them over and over again, even though they dont work.
If youre an adult child of an alcoholic (ACA) or grew up in a dysfunctional family, you probably witnessed ineffective (or even hurtful) communication patterns as a child that were characterized by arguing, blaming, denying, and dishonesty. Unfortunately, most of us tend to repeat the communication patterns we learned in childhood the ones were familiar with and that we observed.
Codependent traits generally develop as a way to cope with trauma and often include high levels of shame, the feeling that were flawed and inadequate, low-levels of self-esteem, difficulty trusting, wanting to please others and keep the peace, perfectionism, and wanting to feel in control.
These traits contribute to our compulsive need to take care of, or fix, other peoples problems, prove our self-worth, and please others. And our fears of being inadequate and rejected, lead us into destructive communication patterns in which we feel we must justify, argue, defend, and over explain ourselves.
Practicing loving detachment is a healthier alternative.
JADE is an Al-Anon 12-step slogan that reminds us not to engage in justifying, arguing, defending, and explaining
Justifying. We feel like we have to justify our behavior and choices because its very painful for us, as codependents, to have others upset with us. The bottom line is you dont owe anyone an explanation or reason for your choices. And if you do give one, people who are bullies or narcissists will try to use it against you. Dont give them this ammunition.
Arguing. In this context, arguing doesnt just mean disagreeing (which is a normal part of a healthy relationship), it refers to yelling, name-calling, rehashing the same disagreements repeatedly without resolution, or blaming. This type of arguing doesnt resolve problems or help you understand others better; it generally creates a bigger wedge between you and others.
Defending. When you feel attacked, its natural to want to defend yourself. And while I whole-heartedly believe in assertively standing up for yourself, you have to know who and what youre dealing with. Sometimes, verbal attacks are manipulations or ploys to get a rise out of you. Theyre part of a recurring destructive pattern to draw you into an argument. Codependents tend to be sensitive, and its especially hard for us to choose not to respond or defend ourselves.
Explaining. We tend to over-explain ourselves because were afraid of upsetting others and we dont feel its valid for us to make our own choices or do things for ourselves. Because were very afraid of rejection and criticism, we over-explain ourselves in order to prove that its acceptable for us to set boundaries, spend money on ourselves, or even make a mistake.
Detaching can help you if you feel guilty when you set boundaries, get stuck in people-pleasing, or have a family member who bullies or pushes your buttons. Detaching is a way of responding that allows you to focus on what you can control, take care of yourself, and let go of trying to control what others do or what they think of you.
Pick your battles. Recognize that you dont have to attend every argument youre invited to. In other words, you dont have to participate; you dont have to take the bait. It helps to identify and be aware of how others push your buttons. What words or topics tend to set you off or compel you to justify, argue, defend or explain? Knowing this gives you the power to see these traps and learn to respond differently (or not at all). Sometimes it helps to directly state, Im not interested in arguing with you, and either change the subject or walk away.
Respond rather than react. Before you say or do anything, take time to collect yourself and think about how you want to respond rather than just impulsively reacting in the same old ways. This takes a lot of practice, of course. It can help to have something (perhaps a mantra or a small object in your pocket to ground you) to remind you of your goal to slow down and think before acting. Mentally rehearsing your desired response to antagonizers can also make it easier to respond differently in the heat of the moment.
Listen to your own feelings. Use your feelings to guide your decisions. When feelings of anger, resentment, fear, discomfort, or mistrust show up they are letting you know that something is off and you need to switch paths. I think we all have a gut feeling about whats right and whats wrong for us; we just need to listen to it! If youre not used to noticing your feelings, make time to purposefully ask yourself how youre feeling throughout the day. Also, remember that feelings can show up in your body. So, if your muscles are tense or your stomach is upset, its also a good time to check-in on your feelings.
Focus on what you can control. One of the keys to breaking codependent patterns and not justifying, arguing, defending, or explaining, is to focus on your behavior and choices. We often get distracted by our desire to change and control others. This is not only futile, but it draws us away from what we can control and controlling ourselves is where our power resides.
Take care of yourself. Tending to your basic needs (eating healthy food, drinking enough water, getting enough rest and sleep, exercising, connecting with positive people, processing your feelings and giving them a healthy outlet, practicing your religious or spiritual beliefs, etc.) can make a huge impact on your mood and energy. Its much easier to hold your tongue, leave the room, choose to do something different, set a boundary, or detach when youre at your best physically and emotionally.
Learning to not justify, argue, defend, and explain (JADE) can bring more peace to your life. It also helps to break ineffective and hurtful communication patterns.
Begin today by making a choice to respond in a different way and remind yourself that its OK to consider your own needs, set boundaries, and detach when necessary.
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