Looking back over their 15-year marriage, Andrew began to see his wife was exhibiting the early signs of paranoia even in memories even from not long after they met. She had always been overly fearful of new environments, vocalized beliefs her boss was secretly out to get her, and constantly worried that he wasnt being loyal to her. But he had loved her anyway, taken no issue with some of these odder qualities, and thought that by marrying her things would get better and her fears would subside.
They did not. Instead, they got worse. To appease her fears of his accused infidelity, he would call her several times a day, allow her to track his location, give her his phone so she could review text and phone messages, let her read his emails (even including work-related ones), and tolerated random sniff tests looking for scents of another woman. Yet despite all of these compromises, nothing seemed to calm her, rather, her behavior seemed to escalate.
Andrew noticed his wifes fears intensified exponentially after the birth of their first child. Their son was not allowed to play at neighbors houses because she was afraid other kids would abuse him. The curtains at their house were drawn during the day because she convinced herself if they werent someone would see, and then kidnap him. Family members werent allowed to take care of him because she believed they secretly didnt like her and would say negative things to the child about his mother. Even the mailman was in a plot to destroy her and take her son away because she felt he was too friendly with the young boy.
Andrew agreed to install cameras in the house, let her listen in on private conversations he made on the phone with his family and tolerated the constant barrage of questions about every minor decision he made. But no matter what he said, his wife was just not satisfied and routinely accused him of dishonesty, disloyalty, malicious deception, and disrespect. Embarrassed by his wifes paranoia and unsure of how to help the situation, Andrew withdrew from family and friends simply to make his life more comfortable and less frustrating.
Tired of his wifes seemingly unnatural behavior and missing the way things used to be, Andrew finally reached out for help from a therapist. After describing his life, it was suggested that she might have Paranoid Personality Disorder. Here are some more signs that can help you recognize it:
- The underlying belief of a person with Paranoid Personality Disorder is that everyone is out to get them. Even those who declare their love and loyalty are only doing that to deceive so they can get information and hurt them later.
- A paranoid personality will use past incidents of deception as evidence that it is going on all the time in nearly every environment.
- They often imagine that there is a master conspiracy plan to make them look crazy, take advantage of them, and/or exploit their past.
- There is usually some period in their childhood of extreme isolation that sparked this thinking. For instance, they might have had several childhood illnesses that prevented them from going to school or playing with other kids for a year or more, or maybe their parents overreactive nature in trying to protect their child from harm led to a belief that the only way to be safe is to fully retreat from others.
- When their accusations are shown to be false, this does not improve the situation or calm their fears and insecurities.
- When they talk about their fears with others, family members and friends begin to pull away because the intensity is overwhelming.
- It is not just the infidelity of a spouse that is questioned but even a boss or best friend is subject to the same fears. While it might not be noticeable at first glance, eventually the paranoia is revealed as it is pervasive in all environments and without prejudice.
- They continuously hold back critical pieces of information from others (bank accounts, passwords, emails) because they believe it will be used against them in the future.
- Once a person has insulted or injured them, there is no turning back. One event is enough for mistrust to appear and, regardless of the apology, it does not change the perception that others are out to get them. It only reinforces the belief.
- Even offhanded remarks are believed to be evidence of a conspiracy. Two people who dont know each other could give the same glance and this would be proof that they were involved in a plot against them.
- They tend to be very defensive about even misperceived attacks and go out of their way to silence anyone who might see their paranoia.
- They are very hyper-vigilant and are continually scanning public and private environments for potential attacks.
- They react negatively to criticism, are unforgiving, hold grudges, and refuse to let any minor detail go for fear that they will open themselves up for another attack.
- They tend to be emotionally immature and react irrationally when they get angry. The very slights that they dont tolerate from others are ones that they will openly utilize.
- They keep their circles separate. Home is not allowed to associate with work and vice versa. This allows them to talk poorly about their spouse at work and poorly about their boss at home without any consequence.
- They pass their fears onto their children and often use stories of kidnapping, abuse, and trauma as justification for their overly protective nature. They even say that its an act of love, claiming that if the behavior ceased it would mean the parent no longer cared for their children.
Living with PPD can be exhausting, exciting, and challenging. They have the ability to fake social interaction in front of others despite their intense dislike of them. They say things like, I was just trying to keep you safe or I can see things that you dont as a way of softening the paranoia. Ultimately this behavior has the opposite effect of what was intended as family members and friends remove themselves from the life of the paranoid person because it is too difficult to handle. If you think someone close to you may be suffering from this, try to encourage them to find help and avoid pulling away, as that may end up doing more harm than good.