Your “inner perfectionist” tells you that you’re not good enough. It pushes you to achieve more, work harder, and prove your worth. It tells you that rest is lazy and hobbies are a waste of time. Perfectionism tells you that mistakes are catastrophic and if people see your flaws, they’ll reject or criticize you.
So, how do we get rid of this unhelpful perfectionist thinking?
Perfectionism isnt just striving for excellence or a desire to improve yourself. Perfectionism is holding yourself (and possibly others) to unrealistically high standards standards that you can never meet, so you always feel like youre not measuring up. Perfectionism leaves you feeling inadequate no matter how much you accomplish or how perfect you try to be.
And in the process, perfectionism robs us of the joys of everyday life, the ability to enjoy our successes and to accept our mistakes, the ability to show up authentically and connect with others.
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Perfectionism is stubborn. Even after youve recognized how much stress and turmoil its causing, its hard to break free of it.
The following reflective questions are aimed to help you explore your perfectionism get to know what its about, where it came from, what purpose it serves, and how to stop chasing perfection and feel good about who you are.
You can use these questions as writing prompts or journaling prompts. Choose a quiet time without distractions to begin your writing. Plan to write for 5-10 minutes per question, but allow yourself more time if you havent finished. Try stream of consciousness writing, which means you just write whatever comes to mind; dont censor yourself, dont edit, dont worry if its neat. The goal is to freely express your true thoughts and feelings. Depending on your schedule, you can answer one question per day or you can answer several. I dont recommend trying to do them all in one day, however. Give yourself enough time to truly reflect, let the ideas marinate, and give yourself time to process what youre uncovering.
This first set of questions is designed to help you evaluate what and why you want to change. Its perfectly normal to feel ambivalent about making changes.
- What problems does perfectionism cause for you?
- Is perfectionism helpful in any way?
- How do you feel about giving up the unhelpful aspects of perfectionism?
- How will your life be better if you can be less perfectionistic?
Perfectionists are often cruel to themselves. We expect the impossible and then berate ourselves when we cant meet those standards. We say things to ourselves that wed never say to someone else. The following questions will help you change your negative self-talk.
- What kinds of negative things does your inner perfectionist say to you?
- Is your negative self-talk helpful, fair, or accurate? Do you hold yourself to a higher standard than everyone else?
- How can you respond to your inner perfectionists expectations, demands, and criticisms with understanding and compassion?
- What do you think your inner perfectionist is afraid of?
We learn that we need to be perfect from a variety of sources. Usually, our culture, gender, how we were parented, and innate personality play a part. Understanding why we developed perfectionism can help us develop more compassion for ourselves.
- Was perfectionism encouraged in your family or culture? How?
- When you were a child, what happened when you made a mistake or didnt meet someones expectations? Were you harshly criticized or punished?
- What kind of parenting style did your parents have? Did they use one of the four parenting styles that can contribute to perfectionism? How did it affect you?
- How did you realize that perfectionism is a way for you to get attention, validation, and please others?
- What else do you think led to your perfectionism? Do you remember any particular experiences that might have contributed?
- If you could go back in time, what would you say to your younger self when you felt scared, worried, inadequate, etc?
Some people may be innately predisposed to perfectionism. But at least some of our perfectionism is an attempt to deal with challenges whether its a chaotic home life or believing were inferior. Brene Brown, Ph.D. described perfectionism as the ultimate fear… People who are walking around as perfectionists…They are ultimately afraid that the world is going to see them for who they really are and they wont measure upI call perfectionism the 20-ton shield. We carry it around thinking its going to protect us from being hurt. But it protects us from being seen.
- What do you think your perfectionism is trying to protect you from?
- What are you afraid will happen if you remove your perfectionism shield?
- If you take down your perfectionism shield and let people know the real you, how might your life be better?
- What can you say to remind yourself that you are enough just as you are?
As perfectionists, we can waste a lot of time perfecting things that dont need to be perfect. We feel compelled to work incessantly; were so obsessed with achieving more, doing it perfectly, and being everything to everyone that we cant relax and have fun. Use these questions to help bring your life back into balance.
- Whats one thing that you can leave unfinished or imperfect?
- How does it feel to not do something?
- If you feel anxious when youre not working or doing, how can you calm yourself and tolerate the discomfort?
- What are you giving up because your perfectionism tells you to work harder, do more, prove yourself?
- Why are fun and self-care important to a happy, healthy life? If youve neglected these areas of your life, what were the effects?
- What do you like to do for fun? How do you take care of your body, mind, and spirit? How can you incorporate more of these activities into your life?
As Perfectionists, we tend to focus on the negatives. We only notice our deficits and failures, never our strengths and successes. We worry about everything that can go wrong. We think in black and white, failing to see that good enough really is good enough.
- What are you grateful for?
- What are your strengths?
- How can you enjoy the process or experience rather than focusing only on the outcome?
I hope these reflective questions help you to understand your perfectionism better and begin to move you toward greater self-compassion and self-acceptance. And you can use my book, The CBT Workbook for Perfectionism (available from all major retailers), to explore these issues more deeply and facilitate greater change.
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