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Trauma After Abuse

Codependency robs us of a self and self-love. We’ve learned to conceal who we really are because we grew up pleasing, rebelling against, or withdrawing from dysfunctional parents. That sets us up for trauma. As adults, even if we’re successful in some areas, our emotional life isn’t easy. Looking for security and love, most of us struggle to get into or out of relationships. We may remain in unhappy or abusive relationships or try to make painful ones work. Many of us would be content just to find a reprieve from ongoing anxiety or depression.

After the Breakup

However, ending a relationship isn’t the end of our problems. After initially rejoicing and reveling in newfound freedom, there’s often grief, regret, and sometimes guilt. We might still love the very person whom we’re grateful we left. We may no longer speak to estranged friends or relatives, even our children, who we still love or worry about. These are unexpected losses to be embraced.

Going “no contact’ doesn’t necessarily end the pain either. The trauma of abuse isn’t over. Our self-esteem has surely suffered. We may lack confidence or feel unattractive. Abuse may continue in a new relationship or in family relations. You may suffer abuse from an ex with whom you co-parent or through children who have been damaged or weaponized. 

As hard as it was to breakup an abusive relationship, it may still haunt us (sometimes even after the abuser is dead). One day, often decades later, we learn we have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) — scars from the abuse we thought we’d left behind. We might be haunted by nightmares and become risk-averse or hesitant to love again. It’s not easy to “leave” for good. 

Fearful of re-experiencing abuse, abandonment, or loss of our autonomy, many codependents become counter-dependent. Yet, our inability to be alone and/or our low self-esteem can cause us to again make poor choices. Out of fear we may settle for someone “safe,” who isn’t right for us and whom we’d never commit to. But despite our intentions, we nevertheless reattach and find it difficult to leave. We don’t trust ourselves and ponder whether the problem lies with us or our partner. And although we’ve vowed to never again let anyone abuse us, some of us may once more be betrayed, abandoned, or mistreated in ways we hadn’t anticipated. We have to let go all over again.

This cycle of abandonment can make us fearful of intimacy. If we opt for being alone, our needs for love and closeness go unmet. Loneliness can trigger toxic shame from childhood, when we felt alone and unloved or unlovable. It may seem like there’s no hope or escape from our misfortune.

The Core of Codependency

We didn’t expect that after coming out of denial, courageously setting boundaries, and leaving unhealthy or abusive relationships, we would then have to face the core of codependency. Our codependent symptoms have been coping mechanisms that masked our basic challenge: How fill our emptiness and loneliness with self-love.

In part, this reflects the human condition, but for codependents these feelings are connected to trauma. Our insecurity, self-alienation, and self-love and self-nurturing skills fuel addictive relationships and habits that cause us recurring emotional pain.

Real Recovery

Just as addicts turn to an addiction to avoid unpleasant feelings, codependents also distract and lose themselves by focusing on others or a relationship as the source of their well-being. If we stop doing that — often not by choice, but due to isolation or rejection — we may uncover depression and feelings of loneliness and emptiness that we’ve been avoiding all along. We keep recycling our codependency until we address our deepest pain.

Healing requires we turn our attention inward and learn to become our own best friend because our relationship with ourselves is the template for all our relationships. 

With some insight, we discover that we’re actually quite self-critical and haven’t been treating ourselves kindly with self-compassion. In fact, we’ve been abusing ourselves all along. This is actually a positive revelation. Our mission is clear: learning to relate to ourselves in a healthier way. Our tasks are to:

  1. Revitalize our connection to our internal cues — our guidance system — to trust ourselves.
  2. Identify and honor our needs and feelings.
  3. Nurture and comfort ourselves. Practice these tips. Listen to this Self-Love Mediation.
  4. Meet our needs.
  5. Heal our shame and affirm our authentic self
  6. Take responsibility for our pain, safety, and pleasure.

Attend Codependents Anonymous (CoDA meetings), and work the Twelve Steps. PTSD and trauma don’t resolve on their own. Seek trauma counseling.

Trauma After Abuse


Darlene Lancer, JD, MFT

Darlene Lancer is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist and expert on relationships and codependency. She’s the author of Conquering Shame and Codependency: 8 Steps to Freeing the True You and Codependency for Dummies and six ebooks, including: 10 Steps to Self-Esteem, How To Speak Your Mind - Become Assertive and Set Limits, Dealing with a Narcissist: 8 Steps to Raise Self-Esteem and Set Boundaries with Difficult People, and Freedom from Guilt and Blame - Finding Self-Forgiveness, available on her website and Amazon. Ms. Lancer has counseled individuals and couples for 28 years and coaches internationally. She’s a sought-after speaker in media and at professional conferences. Her articles appear in professional journals and Internet mental health websites, including on her own, where you can get a free copy of “14 Tips for Letting Go.” Find her on Youtube.com, Soundcloud, Twitter @darlenelancer, and at www.Facebook.com/codependencyrecovery.

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Lancer, D. (2019). Trauma After Abuse. Psych Central. Retrieved on September 19, 2019, from https://psychcentral.com/lib/trauma-after-abuse/
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