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On Grief, Loss and Coping

On Grief, Loss and CopingWhen I was driving my mom and I to the hospital, I knew that my father, who had been on a ventilator for about two months, couldn’t breathe anymore, even with this heavy-duty machine. My mom got the call from the doctor as we were at least 40 miles away. She remained calm. Tearless.

I knew my dad was dying and they were asking her permission to take him off the ventilator. His breaths were escaping through his five chest tubes.

But she didn’t say a word to me. (This was a gift I’ll never forget.) We drove in silence, as I clutched the wheel and refused to lose my composure. We drove in silence, while I tried to keep us safe and keep myself sane at the wheel.

That day was weird. For me, it was a mix of tears and numbness. At the service, there were more tears and even laughter (when the Rabbi read a funny memory my cousin had written).

But largely, I felt empty. I wondered where the torrent of tears had gone. And I thought there was something wrong with me. That I didn’t love my father enough, that I didn’t miss him. That I was in deep denial. I waited and waited for myself to collapse. I waited for my five stages.

But that’s the big myth about grief: contrary to popular belief, there are no five stages. In fact, the foundation of Elisabeth Kübler-Ross’s famous five stages came from interviews she conducted with terminally ill patients in a seminar for doctors-in-training. She never conducted one study to test the stages or talked with people who’d actually lost someone. While grief and loss literature is lacking in general, recent research has discredited the stages.

While there are patterns of grieving, people experience a variety of reactions, said grief counselor Rob Zucker. For instance, after his talk at a seminar, one woman approached Zucker and admitted that for the first year of her husband’s passing, she felt nothing. She was so ashamed of this, and thought it reflected poorly on her. She said that she’d never told anyone, but felt comfortable after Zucker had normalized this feeling. She felt safer that she wouldn’t be judged.

Experiencing Grief

We don’t come into our grief as a blank slate, Zucker said. “What you bring to the table will impact how you process your loss.” According to journalist Ruth Davis Konigsberg in her book, The Truth About Grief: The Myth of its Five Stages and the New Science of Loss, “…probably the most accurate predictors of how someone will grieve are their personality and temperament before the loss.”

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Zucker describes several patterns or themes that individuals may experience. But again, there is no step-by-step ladder of loss. Just following the loss, some people may experience a deep sense of disbelief, even if the death was anticipated, he said. (He added that this might serve as a buffer in processing the harshness of reality.) High levels of anxiety also are common. Some people may experience “an absence of emotions,” and wonder, like I did, “What’s wrong with me?” said Zucker, author of The Journey Through Grief and Loss: Helping Yourself and Your Child When Grief Is Shared.

The “second storm,” as Zucker explained, is an intense period of grief that may include feelings like denial, depression and anger. After the death of his father, Zucker had been grieving for six months, and suddenly while he was driving, he felt like a “brick had been thrown [through] the windshield.” “Something about the reality of [his] death slammed into me in a way that was so difficult.”

After the acute feelings go away, some people may reflect on the loss (while others may reflect right away), Zucker said. They may wonder, “Who am I now? How has this changed me? Have I learned anything? What do I want to do with my life now?”

One of the myths about loss “is that when you’re grieving, there’s never any joy, laughter or smiling,” according to George A. Bonanno, Ph.D, professor and chair of the Department of Counseling and Clinical Psychology at Teachers College, Columbia University. He noted that in his interviews with the bereaved, people were crying one moment and laughing the next, after recalling a memory, for example. There’s been solid research that laughter connects us to other people. “It’s contagious and makes other people feel better,” he said.

We may experience loss differently as we age and go through different developmental stages and life events, Zucker pointed out.

“You can have a very satisfying and meaningful life” after a love one’s passing, said Gloria Lloyd, bereavement community program educator at Mary Washington Hospice. She likened loss to a small piece of a quilt that symbolizes your life.

On Grief, Loss and Coping

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Margarita Tartakovsky, M.S.

Margarita Tartakovsky, M.S. is an Associate Editor and regular contributor at Psych Central. Her Master's degree is in clinical psychology from Texas A&M University. In addition to writing about mental disorders, she blogs regularly about body and self-image issues on her Psych Central blog, Weightless.

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