Trauma theorists tell us that while traumatic events are in themselves physically and emotionally assaultive, it is often the emotions suffered after the smoke clears and the media goes home that become painful and disruptive to our recovery. One of these is anger.
Anger in the aftermath of a traumatic event, be it the loss of a child, the destruction of ones home, a life-threatening diagnosis, a pandemic out of control, the experience of racial oppression or the sequel to combat stress is a common and complex response. It can be experienced as a physiological state, an emotion, a way of thinking, a behavioral response or a combination of these.
- You are not alone if you feel angry about what has happened and continues to happen.
- Essentially you are suffering. The problem is that when anger persists–it can obscure everything else.
- The ability to make meaning of it and redirect it, keeps it from holding you back and taking more from you.
Understanding some of the feelings and dynamics that underscore anger after trauma may be an important step in your journey forward.
Anger as Residual of Fight/Flight Response
It is to our advantage that our biological arousal system goes into survivor mode in face of danger causing an increase in heart rate, rapid shallow breathing, cold sweats, tingling muscular tension and often-antagonistic behavior.
The problem is that when the danger has passed, our body often remains in a state of hyperarousal, leaving us reacting with anger to what would ordinarily be mildly distressing stimuli.
- We blow up at anyone asking if things are starting to get easier.
- We storm with impatience waiting on a line or if something break.
- We find ourselves fighting over everything with our partner.
- We drive faster and yell more than usual.
Because this is a physically driven anger, we need to work fromthe body outto bring it down. Working to reduce our anger is not irreverent to our loss or our sense of horror. Resetting our body rhythms by moving, sleeping and eating well empowers us. It is difficult to think when enraged but if it can be harnessed it can fuel resilience. If your body is restored going forward is enabled.
Someone who lost a loved one in a Nursing Home to COVID-19 began to walk as much as she could. She would cry, at times talk to her dog -but she just kept walking to calm down.
Anger as Protection From Helplessness
- One of the assaults of trauma is the assault to our sense of controlour ability to be in charge of our lives, to protect ourselves, to keep our children safe, to find a way to repair a home, to save a buddy.
- If we are wrapped in rage, we wont have to feel shame or blame. We wont have to accept the reality that a traumatic event is of one that is beyond our control to stop.
Joining with others who have suffered in a similar way often lightens the anger. Whether on Zoom, on a list-serv or on the phone, hearing others struggling with devastating trauma often lifts the self-blame and directs us to what is possible. It does not take away the excruciating loss, but it gives us the perspective to see a path.
Theparentsof one of the children killed in the Newtown CT School Shooting, established a Facebook page called W.W.D.D.What Would Daniel Do. It is a page that essentially reverses the sense of helplessness in face of random violence because–it is intended to inspire random acts of kindness.
Supporting and marching for a cause like Black Lives Matter with others who share your feelings moves you from helplessness to connection and action.
Anger as a Mask for Depression
- Depression isvery commonin the aftermath of traumatic events because all trauma involves lossbe it loss of safety, loss of home, loss of loved ones or loss of country. Depression is the most common disorder suffered in conjunction with PTSD.
- Whereas common symptoms for depression are sadness, sleeping difficulties, concentration problems and a lack of interest in former pleasures, depression in some,particularly men, is often masked by anger, irritability, risky behavior, somatic complaints and domestic problems.
- Often the pain is so well masked that the men, the people who love them are unaware of how much they are suffering.
- Being aware of this connection can be lifesaving.
Anger as an Antidote to Loss
One heartbreaking solution to avoid grieving the loss of a loved one is to stay angry.
Common to veterans who convince themselves that to stay angry is to stay loyal, and to parents whose anger is fueled by the injustice of a childs stolen life, it is both understandable and emotionally exhausting.
Often it is intended to keep others away as the pain is too great to bear or to share.
Often the world misunderstands that time doesnt just heal; rather, people slowly heal in their own time.
- While people move through excruciating loss in their own time and in their own way, some begin to use religion, the warmth of a partner or friend, the help of a counselor or the power of a cause to redirect their anger.
- Some find that healing in a community with others who have suffered (Compassionate Friendsfor bereaved parents,AFSP for suicide supportgroups,TAPSfor military families) allows for validation of anger and lightening its toll.
- Many take up a cause to deal with their own suffering or the suffering of those who have been traumatized in a similar way-be they doctors facing circumstances that make their oath to heal at times almost impossible or Moms of Black Children fighting for reform in the justice system. ( Moral Injury of Healthcare;Mothers for Justice United).
Traumatic loss of any kind is a crisis of self that leaves us trying to hold on by any means.
Often we grasp at anger to shield ourselves from the pain, to lessen our terror, to hide our tears, or to feel less helpless. When we are ready, we may be able to move on with less anger and perhaps more purpose.
We do that even as we carry grief.
We dont forget.
We still have tears…but life and goals seem possible.
Be sure to listen to the Psych UP Live Podcast with Dr. Keith Corl discussing- Beyond Burnout: The Moral Injury of Doctors