How do I end it?

I thought for many years that I lack emotion and as I get older I have come to realize that this is true and has been present since childhood; pictures that I have taken I noticed that I never smiled.

I’ve shut down

I was addicted to gambling for about 12 years. I’ve been in recovery for almost a year now. My problem is that during my addiction I ended up pushing almost everyone out of my life without really knowing that I