Unsure of Sexual Abuse

I recently found out that my parents told their friends and my boyfriend-now-husband that they gave me pretty sexualized spankings when I was in my late teens. They described them in sexualized detail, or mentioned them in a sexual way

I Feel Unreal

I don’t feel like a real human being. I feel fake somehow and not real. It started two years ago when I was hospitalized for schizoaffective disorder. You might be describing depersonalization disorder. People with this disorder have periods when