You are involved with a thinking trap and what I call an “acting trap.” Being good at your job has replaced enjoying your work. When you are so drained by how you make a living that it completely exhausts you it is time for a change.
There are three things I’d recommend. The first is to go to VIAcharacter.org. On this site you’ll find a character strengths survey and I would highly recommend you take the survey and look at your top five character strengths- known signature strengths and will be important as you learn how to have more joy, pride, and a sense of accomplishment and doing your work. The character strengths survey will give you those top abilities that define you and make you who you are. Research has shown that being able to use these strengths on a regular basis and novel ways will increase your daily enjoyment while reducing stress.
Secondly, I’d recommend you looking to engage in hobbies. It could be anything from developing an interest in learning a new language to learning a musical instrument, to bike riding. Hobbies give us a chance to disengage from work in a healthy way by shifting our focus to something we enjoy.
Finally, I’d recommend group psychotherapy. Group psychotherapy allows you to engage with others as well as learning how to understand yourself more deeply.
I believe these three suggestions will help you enjoy your work and non-work time more.
Wishing you patience and peace,
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