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Intrusive Thoughts, Impulsive Behaviors, Feeling “Crazy”

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So this problem has been going on for years, but I just figured out for the most part what’s going on. I keep having like thoughts that feel like they aren’t really “my” thoughts that are extremely critical and repeat what my abusive parents have said and still say. Like if someone says I’m stupid it’ll be like “you’re so stupid. That’s another reason nobody wants to be around you” and I keep hearing it and it sometimes progresses to suicidal taunting. I have done things when enraged and felt powerless over my own actions, like I wanted to stop what I was doing but couldn’t. I have attacked close friends and kept having thoughts of killing them and like suddenly seeing images of me doing it when I definitely never wanted to. Help.

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It’s good that you have clarity about what’s going on. You’re able to recognize that there are times when you cannot control your behavior. You have attacked friends and are having thoughts about killing them. This problem has gotten to the point where you need outside assistance, someone to help you to control your behavior. It would be strongly advised for you to consult an in-person mental health professional. They can help you to control your thoughts and behavior.

You mentioned that you have abusive parents. Part of this problem likely stems from their having abused you. Perhaps it’s entirely the reason. Whatever the reason, receiving professional help is the solution.

It’s not uncommon for people who have been abused to be highly critical of themselves. Sometimes, people internalize the abuse and begin to think that they deserved it or that it’s their fault that it happened. That type of narrative is particularly common among younger people who may not realize that the abuse was never their fault and that it is not because of something they may have done. Abuse is the fault of the abuser. In this case, it is the fault of your parents entirely. It’s a shame and it should’ve never happened.

Your homicidal and suicidal thoughts may be an extension of your inability to control your emotions and the fact that you feel powerless. The extreme nature of your feelings may leave you believing that you have no other choice than homicide or suicide. Nothing could be further from the truth. You need assistance in managing your emotions and therapy could help you with that. Medication might also be helpful. The two together could be what you need in order to gain control of this situation.

Impulsivity is the idea of acting in spontaneous ways without consideration as to how it will affect you or others. Impulsivity is associated with a number of disorders such as borderline personality disorder, bipolar disorder, ADHD, substance abuse, antisocial personality disorder, brain injury or stroke, among others. It’s can lead people to do things like have frequent outbursts, resorting to physical violence, destroying property, engaging in self-harm or harming others. If I were interviewing you, I would want to know more about when this began, how it has escalated, and whether or not you have consulted a physician to rule out any physical causes?

It’s best that you seek help as soon as possible. This is especially true because of your suicidal and homicidal thoughts. They are not to be taken lightly. Intervention should occur soon. In the meantime, it might be best to avoid the people that you wish to harm, especially when you feel out of control. The sooner that you can receive help, the sooner that these problems can be remedied. Call for emergency assistance if you feel that you might hurt yourself or someone else. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.

Dr. Kristina Randle

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Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW is a licensed psychotherapist and Assistant Professor of Social Work and Forensics with extensive experience in the field of mental health. She works in private practice with adults, adolescents and families. Kristina has worked in a large array of settings including community mental health, college counseling and university research centers.

APA Reference
Randle, K. (2020). Intrusive Thoughts, Impulsive Behaviors, Feeling “Crazy”. Psych Central. Retrieved on August 15, 2020, from https://psychcentral.com/ask-the-therapist/2020/06/16/intrusive-thoughts-impulsive-behaviors-feeling-crazy/
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