You are not “complaining” or “just venting”. You have some serious concerns that should be taken seriously. Thank you for writing.
The quantity and quality of sleep is one of the first questions I ask teen clients. If you aren’t getting 8 hours of sleep a night, it’s possible that you are suffering from a sleep disorder. Sleep deprivation can cause depression, irritability, poor memory and concentration, and even hallucinations. Some researchers suggest that poor social relationships are also connected to poor sleep quality. If you aren’t getting good sleep and enough of it, the answer to your problems may be getting more sleep. If you have trouble doing that, I suggest that you see a sleep specialist.
In addition, since you have a diagnosis and someone is prescribing your medication, that’s the person to turn to now. If the prescriber is your medical doctor, not a mental health professional, ask that doctor for a referral to a psychiatrist or mental health clinic. You need a proper assessment by a mental health professional who has the tools and experience to look at your history as well as your current symptoms. I also hope you will consider seeing a therapist regularly to monitor your symptoms and to provide you with support.
Please don’t hesitate to make those appointments. There is no need for you to continue to suffer. You may be right that your medication needs to be changed. You may be correct that a diagnosis made when you were younger is no longer accurate. Since it is the diagnosis that determines treatment, it’s crucial that diagnosis be revisited.
Generally, people who are taking medication regularly see their prescriber to talk about whether there has been progress and whether there are side-effects. If you haven’t been seeing your prescriber regularly for this kind of monitoring, that may be part of the problem.
Please take care of yourself and follow through with this advice. You have nothing to lose but a few hours of your time. You have everything to gain in terms of your level of worry about yourself and your daily functioning.
I wish you well.