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Bad Mental Health Affecting My Health & Relationships, I’m So Confused What Do I Do?

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I’m not yet diagnosed, I can’t afford yet to properly get a consultation and in my country free mental health facilities are quite scarce and it’s not easy to book with the overwhelming amount of people in need of it too and covid19 is upon us.

I was always a shy, and insecure person, it was also normal for me to think a lot during the night but in 2018 it got a whole lot of intensity and I haven’t been the same since. At the start I was elevated I was starting to know myself through church activities and I was happy I felt like I had a purpose, the feeling slowly deteriorated when fights again at home started, we were financially unstable which added more tension, and then I witnessed once again domestic violence, at first I thought I was okay at least but I started panicking randomly, my heart suddenly beats faster and awful thought in my brain started fluttering. It started affecting my singing at the choir. Lastly it took a toll on my health. I have skin asthma, my skin was already flared up but I observe as my mental state gets more intense, my body quickly declined. I started having infections, my skin condition got worse and became more sensitive. I easily got tired despite I was used to the moderate school works.

My thoughts about myself, the self-loathing, got intense as months go by. It got so worse that my head would ache. I was surprised at how intense every feeling I have. Me being stuck in the house because I’m physically sick didn’t help since I felt helpless and hopeless. I’m usually described as a positive person, it was out of character for me to attempt suicide.

Fast forward to now at least I got over my infections and my skin is slowly recovering. Compared to then I can “somewhat “control” my panicking and whatever was that intensity. I try to disconnect myself from emotions but I don’t know if that’s healthy or not, I know I’m still frustrated but I don’t want to go back to those dark times again lose my health again. I’m doing the opposite I had back then, with me having intense emotions I disconnect and be numb. I internalize my emotions and thoughts back then so I’m more vocal but I unintentionally hurt my family.

Bad Mental Health Affecting My Health & Relationships, I’m So Confused What Do I Do?

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If I were interviewing you in person, my first question would be what happened in 2018? You have identified that as a time in which your symptoms had worsened. I’m wondering what caused you to have a change in symptoms. Knowing that information might have helped me to better understand what the problem may be.

A number of things you mentioned are likely contributing to your mental health symptoms including the fight that occurred at home, being financially unstable, and witnessing domestic violence. These are indicators of the instability of your home life. In fact, it’s possible that the problems in your home are the main source of your symptoms.

In addition to the chaos in your home, you’re experiencing physical health problems including a sometimes out-of-control skin condition. The skin condition seems to be exacerbated by the problems of your life. The exacerbation makes you physically sick and further intensifies your symptoms, seemingly to the point of attempting suicide. Thankfully, your attempt was unsuccessful.

Currently, you seem to have recovered to a degree but are now experiencing emotional numbness. This emotional numbness may be a defense mechanism against the extremely negative feelings you had experienced previously. One might even consider the emotional numbness as a temporary Band-Aid or a buffer or sorts. It works for now but it’s important to address the underlying problem.

The best solution is to consult a mental health professional, in person, but understandably that may not be an option at this time. The coronavirus is making it difficult for people to engage in normal daily activities. You might not get an in-person consultation but you may be able to access a professional via the internet or over the phone. Consultations via the Internet are not the norm but that may change given the current pandemic. In that case, I would recommend contacting your local mental health facility to determine if they are providing treatment via phone or the Internet. Many facilities are adapting to the current changes.

In the meantime, there are a number of things you can do. I would recommend journaling. Studies show that it can be quite cathartic and clarifying to write during times of distress. Having this documentation could also assist in your treatment.

You should also keep in contact with friends or other support systems in your life. Even though we all have to engage in social distancing, we can still interact via the Internet. It would help for you not to be alone at this time. The more support you have, the better you may feel.

It’s important to keep in mind that you seem to be living in a chaotic family situation. You mentioned that you sometimes engage in self-loathing. Self-loathing is an extreme dislike for oneself. This would suggest that you are blaming yourself for whatever’s going on in your life. It’s important not to blame yourself for things that are not your fault. Things are happening to you which are outside of your control. You are reacting to the situation and you need more assistance than you are getting.

People who are inclined toward self-loathing are often depressed and thus it’s important that you attempt to reach out to your local mental health facility about what services are available. That would be your wisest course of action. This is especially important because of your attempted suicide.

Try consulting with your local mental health facility and hopefully they will have the services you need. If you ever feel that you are a danger to yourself, contact emergency services. They will provide immediate assistance, even during a pandemic. Good luck, stay safe and please take care.

Dr. Kristina Randle

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Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW is a licensed psychotherapist and Assistant Professor of Social Work and Forensics with extensive experience in the field of mental health. She works in private practice with adults, adolescents and families. Kristina has worked in a large array of settings including community mental health, college counseling and university research centers.

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Randle, K. (2020). Bad Mental Health Affecting My Health & Relationships, I’m So Confused What Do I Do?. Psych Central. Retrieved on August 7, 2020, from https://psychcentral.com/ask-the-therapist/2020/03/31/bad-mental-health-affecting-my-health-relationships-im-so-confused-what-do-i-do/
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