I am sorry you are having this struggle. The combination of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD), depression, anxiety, and cutting are a tough combination to manage. Before we dive into what could be done, let me first identify your incredible strengths of persistence, courage, and love for your family. These are very evident in your description. For a young woman of 16, you are already showing some remarkable character strengths that you don’t want to overlook. These are not only platitudes — these are important traits that will be important for you to rely on as you move forward.
While I’m not a physician I am aware that the combination and nuance approach for the conditions of ADHD, depression, and anxiety are important to manage properly. If you feel the medicines are causing you too much numbness the best and the first course of action is to talk to both your therapist and physician about these feelings. It is not a bother to them, but they cannot help if they don’t know what is happening for you. Also, you are in a much better position to help yourself now than if the cutting begins again. If you want to help your parents not have to deal with a more severe symptom (which will likely cost more) doing something to prevent this will be a huge help. As Ben Franklin said: “An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.”
While I wouldn’t wait to get this information to them I would also be prepared to give them as much data as possible. Let them know when you feel least numb — and when you feel it the most. Being able to notice the distinction between these states is an import bit of information. The desire to cut can often be triggered by a desire to feel something, so rather than say you feel numb all the time, look for those moments when you are less numb — or even those times when feelings breakthrough.
The other trait I want to highlight is your self-control. Being scar free for two years, I am certain it has not been easy. You have already been dealing with the urges and it is a tremendous credit to your ability for self-reflection that allows you to want to stay in the prevention mode. Emotional self-regulation is one of the top strengths a person can have — and you have two solid years o this going for you.
You’ve taken an important step by writing us here at PsychCentral. You may want to check out our forums to connect with others who struggle with these symptoms, and bring as much information back to your therapist and physician as you can.