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Something Is Probably Wrong with Me I Guess

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I don’t really know how to properly start this so I’m going to head straight in. I’m L, I’m 14 years old and a maladaptive daydreamer. I’ve always felt different from other kids, as if I knew something that nobody else did, and there was something about me that set me apart from the crowd (I have yet to figure out what those ‘somethings’ are). I was physically bullied at school from when I was 6-8, by three different people. I have little to no memories of anything around that time, just a few ‘pictures’. I moved schools after that, and was okay for a few years, but when secondary school started my friends cut me off and I started self-harming. I went through a really dark time, in which I was on the brink of suicide a number of times (I’m trying to heal now, which is one heck of a ride, but I think I’m slowly getting there)

Anyway, to my point: I keep trying to make myself ‘different’. Something inside me doesn’t feel normal to the point where I’m googling every possible answer as to what it could be. I’ve considered all kinds of things, from DID to the kin community, and it’s getting to the point where I’ll take any answer. Most of the ‘conclusions’ I come to are some form of dissociative disorder, coping mechanism or something to do with hearing voices. I guess the paras in my daydreams could be that though? I’ve been doing this sort of thing since I was 11, which is when I got access to the internet, but I was already trying to figure whatever ‘this’ is out beforehand.

Point being: Is this a normal thing for teens to do? Am I attention seeking? Or am I just being daft?

I’m not asking for a diagnosis, just some pointers would be nice.

(Also, before you tell me to tell my parents, I’ve already spoken to them. They think I’m being ludicrous. They also don’t have the money to take me to a private psychiatrist/psychologist, and they’ve told me on multiple occasions.)

(The NHS will just take me to CAHMS which offers Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy (CBT). I’ve already tried it. and it really wasn’t for me)

Something Is Probably Wrong with Me I Guess

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Generally speaking, many teens are experiencing the same types of problems you are (with a few exceptions, which I’ll get to below). That’s because the teenage years are very challenging. It’s time when you’re getting to know yourself, who you are, what your likes and dislikes are, and so forth. It’s a very confusing time in one’s life. To say that the teenage years are difficult would be an understatement.

In developmental psychological theory, being confused about one’s identity in one’s youth is considered a normal stage of human development. According to Erik Erikson’s psychosocial developmental theory, you may be experiencing “identity versus identity confusion.” This stage generally occurs in one’s high school years. At this stage in life, individuals are attempting to find their own identity. This includes trying many new things to learn what one likes. During this time, individuals are attempting to determine who they are, what they like, who they want to be, etc. The ultimate goal for this stage is for an individual to find their own identities and to eventually become independent thinkers. If an individual is unsuccessful at this stage, they will experience “role confusion.” If they are successful, they will have more clarity about their identity, their likes and dislikes, and so forth.

Given your age, you may be experiencing identity versus identity confusion. If so, that would be normal for this stage in your life.

You mentioned that you think of yourself as being ‘different’ but you didn’t explain how. Generally speaking, every person has their own unique personality. You are likely very different from other people and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Normal is relative.

You mentioned that you engage in self-harm and had considered suicide. Though many teenagers have engaged in self-harm and have suicidal thoughts, it is not the norm. This would suggest that something is wrong. They are typically indicators of unhappiness and depression. The key to knowing how to cure these problems is determining the underlying motivations. This is best done in counseling.

You asked several specific questions including: (1) is this a normal thing for teens to do? (2) Am I attention seeking? (3) Or am I just being daft?
The answers to those are questions are addressed below.

1) To some extent, some of what you’re experiencing may be “normal,” as explained earlier, however, cutting and suicidal ideation are abnormal and a sign that something may be wrong.

2) No, you’re not attention-seeking. You simply are acknowledging a potential problem and attempting to describe it. If you’re not feeling mentally well, it’s good to acknowledge it and to seek help for it.

3) You are not being daft. You’re being responsible. It’s a shame that your parents believe you are being “ludicrous” but they may simply not know how to help you.

You mentioned having tried cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and it wasn’t for you. CBT is one of the most effective therapeutic treatments in existence. Perhaps you need a different therapist. They’re not all the same. Some are certainly better than others. You may want to try a different therapist. You shouldn’t stop trying to find good help.

You might also ask whether dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) is available at the CAHMS. DBT is effective for people with certain types of problems and disorders, including borderline personality disorder, individuals who engage in self-harm, among others. It’s not uncommon for therapists who know CBT to also know DBT. You might inquire about whether DBT is available and whether or not it’s appropriate for you. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.

Dr. Kristina Randle

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Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW

Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW is a licensed psychotherapist and Assistant Professor of Social Work and Forensics with extensive experience in the field of mental health. She works in private practice with adults, adolescents and families. Kristina has worked in a large array of settings including community mental health, college counseling and university research centers.

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