The feelings you describe sound like they may be a type of depersonalization or derealization. Naturally, this isn’t a diagnosis, but I think having an evaluation and having a professional rule this out would be a good idea.
Depersonalization/derealization happens when you are often feeling like you are viewing yourself from outside your body and that what is around you isn’t real. It does, indeed, feel like you are living in a dream, and can be very disturbing — mostly because it can feel like you are losing touch with reality. Most experts agree that while it is very uncomfortable it does not mean you are becoming psychotic, as many people fear.
Symptoms of depersonalization include:
- Feeling as if you are floating outside yourself and that you are more of a distant observer of your body, or your thoughts, feelings. People often report that they feel like they are floating above themselves.
- Feeling robotic and that you don’t have control of your movements or speech.
- Your body may feel distorted and your arms and legs may not feel like their normal size.
- There can also be emotional or physical numbness of your responses to others and the world around you
- Your memories may not seem like they are yours and lak an emotional connection.
Symptoms of derealization include:
- The sense that you are unfamiliar, alienated or detached from your surroundings. People often report this like they are living in a dream or movie.
- A feeling of being disconnected from people you care about, as if you are in a bubble or behind a glass wall.
- Your world may seem either distorted, blurry, colorless, two-dimensional or artificial, or just the opposite. You may have a heightened sense of awareness or clarity.
- Time is distorted. Recent events seem like they were much longer ago.
- Distances and the size and shape of objects can be distorted.
- Depersonalization-derealization can be it’s own disorder and is more common in people with a history of traumatic events, it can accompany times of severe or chronic anxiety.
Depersonalization-derealization disorder can be severe and may interfere with relationships, work and other daily activities. The main treatment is talk therapy (psychotherapy), although sometimes medications also are used.
Here is a list of things that can help when you are experiencing these symptoms. But, again, my strong recommendation is to have this evaluated by a professional so as to make an accurate diagnosis.