I think you are asking a good question. Whenever we look at a pattern of behavior and ask ourselves if it is serving us well or if it is a collection of symptoms that point toward a label identifying our pain, I think this is important self-reflection. Whatever the answer the question is a good, important one.
The best place to start is with an understanding of how depression is classified. Depression symptoms can vary from mild to severe and can include:
- Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
- Disengaged, with a loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed
- Changes in appetite (weight loss or gain unrelated to dieting)
- Insomnia or sleeping too much.
- Loss of energy or increased fatigue
- Anxiety-related physical activity (e.g., hand-wringing or pacing) or slowed movements and speech (actions observable by others)
- Loss of meaning or purpose, feeling worthless or guilty
- Difficulty thinking, concentrating or making decisions
- Thoughts of death or suicide
From what you’ve written it seems like smoking weed was a type of self-medication that helped to mask the symptoms. Now that it is gone they have re-emerged. I think what makes the most sense for you is to make an appointment with a psychiatrist, psychiatric nurse practitioner, or clinical psychologist. The first two can do an evaluation and screening for depression and make recommendations for medicine. A clinical psychologist can offer an evaluation that can help make a definitive diagnosis.
Wishing you patience and peace,
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