Please don’t apologize for “rambling.” You have not done that. You are simply telling your story. All of those details help me to understand what you are going through.
What you have described is abuse. Your mother is guilty of abuse. Your father is guilty of ignoring her abuse. You shouldn’t have had to endure this abuse.
In the United States, if a child is being abused, they can be removed from their parents. There are hotlines where abuse can be reported. I don’t know what the laws are in your country but in all likelihood, a similar system exists. Google “child abuse and the name of your country,” you might find the necessary reporting information. Local hospitals, churches or counseling centers may also be able to assist.
Running away would not be a wise idea since you don’t want to risk being homeless. Is there anyone with whom you can live, at least temporarily? A family member whom you trust?
It was brave of you to share this information. As you wrote, it was the first time you have done so but it shouldn’t be your last. Your next step should be reporting this information to the school guidance counselor or a trusted faculty member. They should be able to help you find the necessary services to remove you from this situation. I hope this answer assists you in knowing how to proceed. Please don’t hesitate to write again if you have additional questions.
Dr. Kristina Randle