For a while now I have been completely obsessed with my own mental health, I am currently in Secondary School with Aspergers and I am thinking about going on to A Levels and Uni to study psychology and Mental Health, however, I am currently obsessing on my own mental health. One of the main problems is a constant urge and desire to have some sort of serious mental health disorder, and I mean disorders from Schizophrenia to Dissociative Identity Disorder, and I can understand how absolutely horrible that sounds. My mind never seems to drift away from over-analyzing any small part of my day that may be related to some sort of symptom of a disorder (such as overreacting to any thoughts that don’t seem to be mine kind of thing). I have already researched different disorders out of curiosity and know about different symptoms, I don’t believe I am a hypochondriac. I am currently seeing someone about a possible Anxiety Disorder and I believe I am showing some early symptoms of a Dissociative Disorder and some form of Psychosis, but I can’t help but worry about NOT being diagnosed with a disorder. Most nights I have imagined myself in a mental hospital when I am older or developing some sort of alternate personalities, the idea of someone experiencing these fascinate me, one recent dream of mine I remember was the exact life of me living with DID but I can’t remember it exactly. I have also been on edge more than normal, I have flinched a shuddered to noises constantly struggling to reassure myself if the noises were real, I have also experienced Depersonalisation for at least 2-3 years which has started to mix with Derealisation which has also kept me on edge. One thing I think would help with my obsession would be to actually hear the thoughts and experiences of someone with the Disorders I am paranoid about. I would like to hear an opinion to help calm these obsessive thoughts. (From England)
First, I want to say how much I admire your courage in bringing this issue forward. It must be very difficult for you to experience the symptoms and have a concern about their legitimacy and the diagnosis.
Your genuine struggle with this is one reason something like Munchausen Syndrome is not likely to apply, and your self-described ‘obsessive thoughts’ sound like where the bulk of the work is for you.
I am glad to hear you are in therapy and I would encourage you to talk more directly and deeply with your therapist
Dan Tomasulo Ph.D., TEP, MFA, MAPP teaches Positive Psychology in the graduate program of Counseling and Clinical Psychology at Columbia University, Teachers College and works with Martin Seligman, the Father of Positive Psychology in the Masters of Applied Positive Psychology (MAPP) program at the University of Pennsylvania. He is Director of the New York Certification in Positive Psychology for the Open Center in New York City and on faculty at New Jersey City University. Sharecare has honored him as one of the top 10 online influencers on the topic of depression. For more information go to: http://www.dare2behappy.com/. He also writes for Psych Central's Ask the Therapist column and the Proof Positive blog.
APA Reference Tomasulo, D. (2019). I’m Confused and Paranoid about My Mental Health. Psych Central.
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