From a young teen in Morocco: I have experienced hallucinations for about 9 years now. Mom refuses to take me to a doctor for it and makes me feel guilty for it, along with other issues. They’re just getting worse as time goes on, more intense, and they’re making me more dysfunctional. I am undiagnosed, and therefore do not know the cause of my hallucinations. Some people say it’s normal, but they interrupt my functionality in the world. Sometimes, my auditory hallucinations won’t shut up, which mostly occurs when I want to sleep, as a result, I can’t sleep in those cases. My visual hallucinations are a pain to deal with, and are the ones which occur most. I don’t get olfactory or gustatory hallucinations much, but if I do, they’re usually pleasant. Tactile hallucinations have decreased, but when my hallucinations are at a peak, they intensify as well. By “peak” I mean when my visual and auditory hallucinations merge and become excessive that I lost all ability to differ between reality and hallucinations, videos of simulations of psychotic episodes describe this pretty well. Could this be a disorder, or is it really something that’ll pass, and which I could potentially be causing myself(As my mom says.)?
Nine years? That means you’ve been having these experiences since you were only 5 years old. It is not uncommon for non-psychotic children to have hallucinations. However, the fact that they have continued for so many years and that these hallucinations interfere with normal functioning suggests that they are not the product of an active imagination. I do understand why you are upset and why you want answers.
Parents generally don’t want to believe that a child might have a mental illness. Sometimes pediatricians don’t recognize it either. I can’t make a diagnosis on the basis of a letter, but I can tell you that the experiences you describe should be evaluated by a mental health professional to determine whether or not you need treatment. Talk to your mother about seeing a professional — if only for your (and her) peace of mind.
I wish you well.
How Do I Find Out What Hallucinations Mean?
Dr. Marie Hartwell-Walker
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APA Reference Hartwell-Walker, D. (2019). How Do I Find Out What Hallucinations Mean?. Psych Central.
Retrieved on November 19, 2019, from https://psychcentral.com/ask-the-therapist/2019/03/01/how-do-i-find-out-what-hallucinations-mean/
Last updated: 28 Feb 2019 (Originally: 1 Mar 2019) Last reviewed: By a member of our scientific advisory board on 28 Feb 2019 Published on Psych Central.com. All rights reserved.