Two possibilities come to mind. The first is an unquiet mind. People meditate in order to quiet their minds. Meditation is the practice of focusing one’s attention and awareness. You might try meditation to gain control over your thoughts.
A second possibility is obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). OCD is an anxiety disorder. People with OCD commonly experience intrusive thoughts. They are thoughts and images that are unwelcome and distressing. People often describe them as “coming out of nowhere” and lack the control to stop them from occurring.
The solution to this problem is counseling. These are exactly the types of problems that psychotherapy is designed to resolve. Contact a local therapist and meet with them in person. They would be in the best position to know what might be wrong and most importantly, how to treat it.
One final thing. You are not a “loser” for struggling with this issue. That type of thinking makes it more difficult to accept treatment. Anxiety is one of the most common conditions in the world and it’s easily rectified with treatment. The sooner you begin treatment, the sooner this issue can be remedied. Good luck and please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle