Your friends are correct. What you are doing is wrong. What you described is not consistent with ADHD. It’s abusive and, depending upon what you’ve made people do to “prove their love” for you, possibly illegal.
As you stated in your letter, you only care about whether your behavior might result in you being hurt. In other words, you only care about yourself.
If you engage in illegal behavior, you could be arrested and imprisoned. If you hurt someone, they might retaliate. As you mentioned, perhaps one of their relatives will seek revenge upon you. Undoubtably, your behavior is risky and you stand to be harmed should you continue this way of life.
I should also mention that intentionally harming people is considered by some to be a form of evil. Since you are worried about the repercussions of your behavior, you should seek help. It’s not advantageous to engage in risky behavior that could have a negative impact upon you. It’s in one’s best interest to avoid self-harm. Treatment might prevent you from future suffering and, by extension, also stop the suffering of others. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle