Hello. My issue is about friendships and the aftermath of my toxicity. I’ve been friends with a girl X for so many years, but I noticed this summer that she seemed to be with someone else, which IS normal. However, I can conclude that her random annulment of our get-together was canceled to be with that person. I still was trying to be as nice as possible to X, but eventually, it felt like I didn’t know her anymore.
That’s when my other friend J told me everything. She was there telling me of how awful of a person I am, and it hurts when you hear it from someone you love, but she was right. In the end, I was a terrible person, and over these past few months, I’ve been trying to change and actually seeing improvement.
However, the problem now is that X is being nice to me again, which I’m glad for, but I’m scared it’s just an act. I’m scared that X and J still don’t trust me. They won’t let me talk about stuff that THEY are into alone. They only talk about what we all like. I wanted to be redeemed and more open-minded, so I wanted to do what they like, but they don’t seem to trust me again.
I know this is a common issue with people, but I really want help. I don’t want this to be the way I am with my friends. Thank you for reading, and may your advice be extremely useful with my situation.