The question each human being has to answer is, what makes life worth living? The answer usually changes over time and begins in our teen years. It sounds to me as if this is the first time you’ve had the challenge of trying to answer what it is that brings joy, excitement, and awe into your life.
From your email, it is clear it is clear you are creative and articulate. My encouragements is to start experimenting with classes and activities that you find interesting. You haven’t been exposed to the thing(s) that may be most engaging for you yet. Sampling different activities with different people may awaken you to possibilities that you didn’t know existed.
Wishing you patience and peace,
Proof Positive Blog @ PsychCentral