I’m sorry you are experiencing these symptoms. I recommend a three-prong approach for coping. First, I would do two things known to be helpful with anxiety. Initially, I would engage in an exercise or yoga program. Taking care of your body physically in this we can often help to reduce anxiety in general.
Secondly, I would experiment with meditation classes or apps such as Insight Timer or Headspace. These apps can help you develop some basic skills and meditation which will help with emotional self-regulation.
Finally, I would engage in the practice of self-compassion. Here are some good ones by Dr. Kristin Neff. This particular form or this can help you be more compassionate with yourself and let the internal process of forgiveness begin.
Wishing you patience and peace,
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