You mentioned that you are taking medication but what about counseling? You should not be only taking medication. Counseling is often the treatment of choice or a necessary adjunctive treatment for many psychological issues. If you’re not in counseling, you should be.
It’s also important because of your expression of hopelessness and pessimism. Depression and related ailments can make you think things that are not true. It clouds your judgment and can lead to faulty conclusions. People who are depressed often believe that their lives will not improve and that nothing will change. That type of thinking is obviously wrong and can lead you astray.
Counseling is especially important because of your admitted self-harm. People who engage in self-harm often do so because they lack healthy coping mechanisms. A therapist will assist you in developing healthy coping skills so that you will stop harming yourself.
The solution is to seek professional help, via counseling. Tell your prescriber that you would like more assistance than you are receiving and that medication is simply not enough. Once you begin counseling, you should begin to feel better. With every session you should feel a slight improvement. If not, then find a different therapist. If you feel that you might harm yourself or someone else, contact emergency services. They will protect you and ensure that you receive the proper assistance. Stay safe and please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle