And yet you are trying to improve yourself by learning a second language. You are already showing courage, persistence, and honesty by taking such a deep and detailed look at yourself and asking for help. It is a very brave thing to be able to do this and your courage is happening in spite of your depression.
You’ve listed yourself as a student and if you are at a university there are many opportunities there for you to: 1. get involved with other students; 2. get some support; and 3. learn new things. These three opportunities are there for you and you need to make a choice to start investigating them. Not to make a choice to change is making a choice to stay the same. I would also talk to the counseling center at your university. They can give you some support and ideas about how to begin these changes and maintain them. You’ve done a very good thing here by reaching out. Now it is time to take the next step.
Wishing you patience and peace,
Proof Positive Blog @ PsychCentral