People find me smart, but I find myself stupid. Although I love learning, and can earn any degree, in working life I do not know how to solve problems or use my knowledge. This makes me depressed and brings me failure. Also, I am thinking of a change career. Will this ever solve my issues? Or will I be studying in my entire life because I am not able to work properly? Or maybe I am really in the wrong field?
In my current profession, I feel like I am bored, my talents aren’t used. I feel wasted. It feels like my daily job has no result, I cannot accomplish anything, which bothers me, because am that person who works really hard until I get an honorable mention, if I do not get, I lose my interest really fast. Also, I live for challenges. I do not like team job, I like to win.
Since I realized everything I do and plan, that fails, I am really depressed and people started to notice something is wrong with me. I am usually a happy, vibrant, free soul person, now all I do is crying in random moments, feeling sad, thinking of death sometimes, thinking I have no value. I do not see my path, I just live day by day but not giving meaning to my life. I am also frustrated because I want to work and enjoy what I do, but my life is stuck. My parents advise me to stay in my career because may I regret the changes later, also I did not study 4 years to give up the entire thing. But the sad truth is, that I am not happy in my job. Should I really stay or change? I do not know. My life is a failure, my career is a failure, I am a failure. I am so excited about the career change, but will this really help, or it seems exciting only till the moment I realize how the job looks like in daily life? How do I find the job that would suit me best? Will this bring me out of depression?
Thank you in advance for helping me out! God Bless You (From Hungary)