It’s normal for teenagers to feel insecure, but it’s not normal for them to take a “bunch of pills” or to want to end their lives. I would categorize your taking pills as a possible suicide attempt. That is a serious matter. Coupled with the change in your grades and your indifference about living, depression is a possibility.
I would encourage you to tell your mother about how you are feeling. She should know about the fact that you took a “bunch of pills.” If she still thinks this is “normal,” then tell her you’ve written to us at Psych Central. That might convince her that you’re serious about wanting help.
Unfortunately, many teenagers have a difficult time convincing their parents that they need treatment. There are many reasons why but chief among them may be that parents don’t want to think that their child needs help beyond what they can provide.
Ask your mother to take you to a therapist. All of the problems that you have described are treatable with counseling. There’s no reason to suffer with treatable problems. That’s yet another reason why you should try to convince your mother that you want treatment.
If that doesn’t work, and your mother still refuses, go to the guidance counselor at school and ask for their help. They will know what to do.
Hopefully this response will assist you in getting the help that you deserve. If you feel the urge to hurt yourself or someone else, call emergency services or go to the hospital. They will keep you safe. Good luck and please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle