It is very concerning that you are contemplating suicide and have made attempts to harm yourself. In addition, you feel as though you cannot control yourself. You need to speak to someone about these issues immediately. This is a crisis-level situation. Go to your parents, a trusted relative, a member of the congregation, or anyone else who you believe can help. The problem has escalated and you should not be dealing with it alone.
Sometimes it can be difficult to know what to say when asking for help. What is most important is to be honest. It would be difficult to effectively help you if you had not completely told the truth. You can try saying something to your parents such as: “I believe that I may have depression. I cry a lot, I can’t sleep or concentrate, my grades are slipping, my mood is unstable, I have lost my appetite, and I have thoughts of hurting myself. I don’t feel good. I’m not sure how to handle my problems. Sometimes I hurt myself because I don’t know how else to feel better. I believe that I need professional help. Can you please help me?”
If you are uncomfortable speaking to your parents then please alert somebody at the school. It is important that you do not keep this problem a secret any longer. Also, if you feel that you cannot control your behavior and may harm yourself then go to the hospital immediately or call emergency services. The hospital can help you and keep you safe. They can also help you access mental health treatment.
People with depression oftentimes have tunnel vision. They do not see reality clearly. They mistakenly feel as though their situation will never change or improve. In the case of someone who is suicidal, this type of thinking reinforces the idea that one should end their life. It is important to realize that depression causes irrational and illogical thinking. The truth is that things can get better with the proper help. The proof of this is that worldwide many people suffer with depression but once they receive help, they are able to recover from their condition.
It is important that you surround yourself with as many supportive people as possible. This would include friends and family. I understand that this will be a difficult task because you’re not feeling very sociable but it is imperative that you do not isolate yourself. The more you isolate yourself the more likely it is that you will continue to view your situation as hopeless. Even if you feel the desire to isolate, force yourself to be in the presence of others. It can protect you from continued self-harm.
Please speak to someone immediately about the issues outlined in your letter. You may be suffering from depression. There is help available. Please take care and do not hesitate to write back if you have any additional questions. I wish you well.
This article has been updated from the original version, which was originally published here on October 4, 2010.