Norman Bates, Alfred Hitchcock’s memorable character in the movie Psycho, was a fictional person created for entertainment, and what you are experiencing sounds like it is anything but entertaining. Your descriptions seem very real, serious, and hurtful to yourself and others. The internal pain you’ve described along with the thoughts and actions are in-line with psychopathology. You might want to take this quiz developed here at PsychCentral to see where you score. Also, you may want to investigate our forums about your concerns as they would have more information for understanding. Of course, the most direct way to get answers is to make an appointment with a mental health professional who has published on these matters and offers clinical treatment.
Wishing you patience and peace,
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