From Pakistan: I talk to myself all the time.i am doing this far as long as i can remember.what i do is that i create a lot of people in my mind and a story plot and then i start acting it out. i do it aloud and acted out the part of every person i created .i prolong single story for weeks at a time. it seems like my stories age with me. when i was a kid , stories were kid stories like a family of ants, talking animals, miniature people living in forest. but as i get older my stories became more of adult kind. now these are about couples, family issues or on friends.
in the start i used to do to this in bath room or closed room and the second i leave the room i am back in my present life. now i am more consumed by them , even if i am sitting with my family ,i would be in my head constantly talking to my characters as if an ongoing serial.
i tried writing my stories but as soon as i started writing my mind goes blank. what i do realize is if i am sad my stories get a happy turn, if i am angry stories became apologetic , if i am happy they turned to be sad.
The other problem i have is that i have no idea how to socialize. What normally happens is that i would be sitting with group but i wouldn’t take part in the conservation. It is like i am a spectator not part of the group. I am like this with every person i know, my parents, brothers, friends, cousins every one. But there are few days when i wont stop talking or laughing but this phase is becoming more and more small now. Now a days i am usually just want to be left alone in my room. I don’t want to be part of any conversation or any family gatherings. I would lay down on the bed and not move for hours at a time. would get furious over small things and start crying. sometimes i had quite a big fight but I’ll be emotionless afterwards.
Also i am losing interest in things i usually love to do before. I can’t concentrate on things now. my focus keeps on shifting. Its like one day i want to do something and next day i don’t want to do it. I would make plans and then keep postponing them. I am pushing my friends away.