I’ve been cutting at my forearm for a few weeks now and in total have probably cut it 200 ish times. Most of the cuts aren’t deep and are like bad scratches but a few times I accidentally got to the fat layer. I’m not depressed, I am not suicidal, I haven’t had any emotional trauma or other things I am trying to cope with. The only reason I cut myself is because I like watching myself bleed. I know that there must be something wrong with me in order for me to willingly do this to myself but I don’t know what and wanted to ask someone anonymously. (From New Zealand)
This sounds like a condition that you will want to get help for sooner rather than later. Please look to find a therapist in your area who has some experience with cutting. In the meantime here is one of our articles you may find helpful in explaining what may be behind it. You can validate what is in the article and speak to a therapist who can help narrow down what the best treatment options are.
Dan Tomasulo Ph.D., TEP, MFA, MAPP teaches Positive Psychology in the graduate program of Counseling and Clinical Psychology at Columbia University, Teachers College and works with Martin Seligman, the Father of Positive Psychology in the Masters of Applied Positive Psychology (MAPP) program at the University of Pennsylvania. He is Director of the New York Certification in Positive Psychology for the Open Center in New York City and on faculty at New Jersey City University. Sharecare has honored him as one of the top 10 online influencers on the topic of depression. For more information go to: http://www.dare2behappy.com/. He also writes for Psych Central's Ask the Therapist column and the Proof Positive blog.
APA Reference Tomasulo, D. (2018). I Enjoy Watching Myself Bleed. Psych Central.
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Last updated: 28 Aug 2018 Last reviewed: By a member of our scientific advisory board on 28 Aug 2018 Published on Psych Central.com. All rights reserved.