From a woman in Italy: Hello, I hope I will manage to describe my situation, even if english is not my native language.
I have been in a relationship for 7 years with my partner. We are both 40. Our relationship started out from friendship, we met through mutual friends. We were both searching for a serious relationship when we met, and we saw in each other what we were looking for, stability, plans for the future, mutual respect. We have a very similar style of life, and we like similar things, and love doing things together.
But there is some kind of sexual incompatibility between us, I don’t feel attracted by him. It is not about the looks, it has to do with a way he approaches me, or chemistry, or with how I perceive him, I really can’t tell what is the real problem. In first years I was ignoring the problem, thinking thay there is something wrong with me, with my hormons or my libido, and I was trying my best to “make him happy” even if I was not in the mood. I knew he has his needs and that he becomes nervous if he is not satisfied. I think that made me feel worse and worse, since I always had a feeling that the relationship happiness was depending on me.
We started speaking about this issue, but it was not really resolving anything, since he was always complaining about how little kinky I am, and I was complaining about the fact I didn’t liked the way he kisses me and that I feel obligated to have sex. But we stayed together for years, since there are so many other things that connect us.
Then, 2 years ago, I fell in love with another person. I couldn’t immagine myself being in a relationship with this person, but he attracted me a lot. Then I had a very hard period not knowing what to do. A year ago I left my boyfriend, and tryed with this other guy, and the sex was totally different, satisying and fullfilling. But I couldn’t let go compleetly my boyfreind, and I couldn’t really let myself try with this new person. I came back to him, but I continue on changing my mind, constantly, and wondering if I should be with him, if there is something we can do.