There are several possible reasons. One is that you might have depression. Depression makes it difficult to enjoy life. Another less likely reason is that the things you love could be changing. Young people are sometimes easily bored. Maybe your tastes are evolving. You might try reading other books, or listening to different music, etc. If you find that nothing makes you happy, then depression might be the problem and not changing interests.
It would be helpful to document your moods. It’s good to have a record of mood changes for counseling purposes. It might lead to a deeper understanding about the potential problem. For instance, you might find that you feel particularly upset after interacting with certain people or times when you don’t sleep well. Those types of facts would be good to know.
You mentioned not being able to afford therapy. What about your parents? Perhaps they would pay for therapy. If you have health insurance, there might only be a small co-pay. It might not cost as much you think and some therapists offer sliding scale fees. It’s good to ask.
You are correct when you say that it’s difficult to fix a problem that is not well understood. That is true for any problem. Professional mental health treatment is the solution. It works for many people and it could work for you too. Start the process of finding a therapist by asking your parents and or also the school counselor. Between your parents and the school counselor, you should be able to find help. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle