Generally speaking, it is normal for adolescents to be sexually curious. Sometimes that curiosity will go in the direction of an animal. It is a mistake that is more common than people would like to admit. It is a mistake and is wrong for many reasons. Mistakes happen but they should not be repeated. If you learn from a mistake, it will not be repeated.
Animals should never be a part of the sexual equation. They are helpless creatures who cannot consent to sexual acts. This is in part why harming animals is now considered a felony offense. Animal cruelty of any kind is considered a “crime against humanity.” It’s also considered a precursor to a larger crime.
Sexual contact with animals is never okay. It is considered abusive, exploitative and it is illegal in the United States. It’s also risky to one’s health. Over 200 zoonotic diseases can be transmitted to humans through sexual contact with animals. Some research also suggests that individuals who engage in these types of sexual acts with animals have themselves been victims of sexual abuse.
You mentioned feeling guilty. That is a good sign because it indicates that you have a strong sense of right and wrong. That level of insight and awareness is a very positive sign. It significantly decreases the probability of your repeating the same behavior.
I would encourage you to consult a mental health professional who can answer your questions about sexuality. A therapist will not be judgmental or surprised by your questions. Therapists receive training in human sexuality. The more open and honest you can be about your curiosity, the more clarity you will receive about your sexuality. Good luck and please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle