Hello, I’m a 3rd year animation student and I’m concerned about my mental health. For the past few weeks I’ve been shifting from severe depression to a kind of mania. I might have felt this “high”once before but not to this point- especially during finals where most individuals are depressed and stressed. Instead of being depressed or even stressed out over work, I’m not. I’ve even been falling behind on work or being late to class and I simply don’t care.
I can’t focus, and for four days straight I’ve been “drugged” on adrenaline and euphoric moods. Even now my thoughts are all over the place. When I was in high school I would also have these moods but only once in a while and I would use them to be super creative. I once made a fully colored one minute animation in a week (something that takes others more than a month) and I also drew 20 pages of a comic when the teacher asked only for 10. I was the only one who did this in my class both times.That was years ago. Now, this year I was severely depressed from november to december to the point that I was unable to go to class from panic attacks and feelings of worthlessness. I would cry every day and feel horrible for weeks. Even after classes ended, winter break I continued to have these depressed moods up until class started. When class started I began to feel less depressed and more stable and that lasted from february to march when something else happened.
During the second week of march I was depressed again despite having a lot of fun during spring break. The week after however I felt this strange sort of highness and took more than I should out of a bottle of cough syrup. I got high and after that high even though I haven’t taken the drug again, I’ve been feeling crazy. Crying in public, not sleeping for days, dancing and singing.
I was diagnosed with Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I was seeing a counselor and I was evaluated by the psychiatrist I had for 15 minutes only. I don’t think that was enough time…. I’m worried that I might have been misdiagnosed. I don’t want to speak to counselors anymore, I just want to know what’s wrong.
Thank you so much