Obviously, it is not normal or desirable to be depressed just as it is not normal or desirable to have a fever. In both cases, something is wrong. At the very top of a list of things that should be done, would be finding a cure for your depression. Too many people believe that depression is just a normal part of life. Fever and depression are things that occur in life but they are a divergence from normalcy. In both cases, a treatment of some kind is necessary to eliminate the cause and produce a return to normalcy.
If a fever is low and the depression is low, perhaps the body and the mind will overcome the cause and produce a return to normalcy. A high fever and a high level of depression, are unlikely to cure themselves and are likely to require treatment; treatment by a highly educated, trained professional. A physician and a therapist, are both highly educated specialists in their own fields. I would expect both of them to be able to produce a cure.
Having a high fever is not normal and there are complications to the physical body from having a high fever. Having a high level of depression is also not normal and just like the high fever, the depression will cause complications. Curing the fever and the depression, will not only eliminate them but will also eliminate the complications caused by them.
Your anger, cutting, and unhealthy fantasies are likely resultant complications of your depression. Certainly, I don’t know if that last statement is true because it is impossible to diagnose someone from a short letter posted on the Internet. Even though, I don’t know for sure, your treating therapist most certainly will know. One thing that I do know for sure, is that every symptom that you have described is treated, every day, with great success in therapy.
I hope you will consider my suggestion and I wish you the best of luck.
Dr. Kristina Randle