I started therapy almost 9 months ago because I had anxiety problems and knew that I had underlying issues that may be causing it. My anxiety actually got a lot better, however, a few months ago I got extremely depressed, to the point where I very specifically planned out my suicide. Although I feel a lot better now, I still have a fairly low mood, low energy and I gained quite a bit of weight. I wonder if I am ever going to get better, or if this depressive episode has damaged my brain in a way that can’t be repaired. I feel like therapy isn’t helping with this at all – thinking through things can’t really elevate my mood, it actually often makes everything worse.
What should I consider before stopping therapy? I like my therapist and as I mentioned he did help me with my anxiety, and after all these months he kind of ‘gets me’. I also don’t know how to bring up that I am thinking about stopping. I know he wouldn’t have a problem with it but for some reason it seems strange to cut him out of my life (although he never actually was in it). I am very tempted to just cancel my next appointment over the phone and not come back, but I know that’s probably not so wise.
I have a lot of things to be grateful for: a husband who I am happily married to, a career path I feel very passionate about and great friends. This makes it all the more frustrating and I am mad at myself for not feeling better.
Thank you for taking the time to reading this! Any advice would be very helpful.