I’ve always felt sort of off. I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was in kindergarten and was almost immediately medicated. Things were fine until 8th grade when a boy left me and I spiraled into depression and self harm. Then in freshman year a boyfriend sexually assaulted me by saying that if I loved him I would let him do things. That messed me up more. Now it’s senior year and I don’t want to get out of bed. I shut down at the slightest hint of hostility or annoyance that someone directs towards me. I have thought running through my head telling me that people don’t like me and that I am doing things wrong and am being judged for them. I am scared to say things for fear that people will be upset. I pick at my skin and hair until my face and/or cuticles bleed. I continuously feel bored and numb. I feel as though I can’t get excited or aroused by things anymore despite that never being an issue before. I feel like this feeling has been growing since I was 13 and now it’s finally peaking and I don’t know what it is or what to do and I feel as though I am losing my mind. I just want to know what is going on with me.I Don’t Feel Right
I Don’t Feel Right
Thank you for reaching out. Based upon the symptoms you describe, it sounds as though you may be experiencing depression and anxiety. I recommend seeking a consultation with a licensed mental health professional and possibly the consultation of a psychiatrist for medication evaluation. It takes courage to seek help but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Best of luck to you!
– Dr. Mimi