You’re not overreacting. Whenever you think something may be wrong, you should take action. Not everyone does, but they should and your instinct to ask for help is a very good one.
Part of why you may be feeling more irritable is a lack of sleep. People are more irritable and emotional when they do not receive the proper amount of sleep. As a teenager, ideally, you should be receiving a minimum of nine hours of sleep. If you’re not getting the amount of sleep you need, you will be less sharp, and more emotional and irritable.
What’s most concerning are your thoughts of suicide. Suicidal ideation is not necessarily a side effect of lack of sleep. It may be exacerbated by a lack of sleep, but it is not generally caused by it. It might suggest that something else is wrong such as depression.
Because your parents are reluctant to take you to a therapist, one way around this may be to consult your school guidance counselor or another trusted faculty member. The more direct you are with them, the more they will be able to assist you. They may also be able to speak to your parents on your behalf and convince them that mental health treatment is the solution to this problem.
It’s good that you are proactive and are attempting to seek treatment. The school guidance counselor will likely be able to assist you with this problem. If not, and you are still thinking about suicide, do not hesitate to contact emergency services. The phone number for the National Suicide Prevention Hotline is 1-800-273-8255. The crisis text line information is the following: text HOME to 741741 in the United States. They will know how to keep you safe. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle