If you are having thoughts of suicide, you should immediately go to the hospital for evaluation and assistance. This is imperative.
Many people who have attempted suicide comment that they were thankful to have survived. They were grateful because they had gone on to live a much better life- a life they never imagined was possible. I have heard this type of message from many people. There must be something to this.
Depression can make someone feel that there is no hope. Depression clouds a person’s judgment and because of this, depressed individuals often come to erroneous and incorrect conclusions. This means that depressed people often judge their reality incorrectly. The decision to commit suicide is usually a decision that is being made by a person who is in deep despair and not able to see reality clearly. It is highly likely, as with many other depressed individuals, that you are misjudging reality when you conclude that suicide is the only option for you. You are wrong. There are other options.
You feel that there is no other solution to your problem. There absolutely is. Most of the people who survived their suicide attempt came to realize that there is help for depression and things can usually get better. Many finally went to get help. Their message to others in similar situations is always the same “there is help available and I wish someone would have told me.” They feel so strongly about this message that many of these people dedicate their lives to helping others in similar situations who also feel equally as hopeless.
There are therapists who are trained to help you overcome your addiction and depression. With the right therapist, you can change your life for the better. I know that your family situation is not ideal but this is the case for many people. What you are facing others have faced and there is help for you if you make the effort.
You mentioned your family and how they would feel if you ended your life. Research shows that the family members of people who have committed suicide often suffer tremendously. They struggle to understand why their loved one chose to end their life and did not ask for help. Family members often blame themselves or each other for the terrible event and many families ultimately fall apart as a result. Please realize that with the right help, you have a high change of turning your life around and decreasing or eliminating your depression and thoughts of suicide.
Please choose to get help and heed the message of those people who are still here to tell their story of hope.
This article has been updated from the original version, which was originally published here on February 20, 2008.