Hey, I’ve got a pretty complex issue here with a lot of nuances. To put it simply, my girlfriend has BPD with the three extra disorders, Eating, Depression, and anxiety. After 9 months I’m really struggling to find the love in the relationship. One month ago I did something awful to her that was related with my PTSD, and now I’m just trying to pick up the pieces because of guilt. Because of my desperate behaviors, I’m worried that she has taken this opportunity to control me. Currently, there is a lot of me giving to her and not receiving the same effort back. There are a lot of fights and daily depression that effects both our lives heavily. I guess, I’m trying to figure out if I should break up with her because the BPD has become too overwhelming and manipulative. I can’t even play guitar anymore because she thinks that me learning will compromise her identity that has latched onto her guitar skills. All of my hobbies are now competitions in her mind. I love her extremely, but all of this daily drama is killing us. I think it just comes down to figuring out if there is a future for us anymore. Can we recover from my PTSD episode that ruined our relationship, or are we just delusional. I really don’t have anyone in my life to discuss with. (From the USA)
A: Whatever this is it isn’t love. You said it yourself. After 9 months you are feeling guilty, controlled, and your growth and hobbies are in competition with her. You are most likely in love with who you wish she could be-not who she is. Nine months is enough.
Wishing you patience and peace,
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