The fact that you have received a diagnosis means that you were evaluated by a mental health professional. That mental health professional could have diagnosed you with bipolar disorder, but apparently didn’t feel it was a match. That was likely because your symptoms were more characteristic of schizophrenia than bipolar disorder.
It’s important to remember that the mental health professional who provided a diagnosis has undergone years of training. Training teaches mental health professionals to distinguish mental illnesses from each other. Having said that, diagnosis is not an exact science. Mental health professionals sometimes disagree on which diagnosis is the most accurate. Studies have shown this to be true.
The symptoms you have described seem to be more consistent with schizophrenia than bipolar disorder. For instance, you often feel emotionless. Clinically, this is known as “flat affect.” It is a symptom of schizophrenia and not necessarily bipolar disorder. It specifically falls into a category called negative symptoms. It could also be a side effect of antipsychotic medication.
In my view, your energy is better spent on symptom relief and treatment than on diagnosis. In the grand scheme of things, what matters the most is feeling better and experiencing a relatively symptom-free life. If you are taking antipsychotic medication, discuss your symptoms with your prescribing physician. Adjusting your medication might help to restore a more normal range of emotional expression. Good luck and thank you for your question.
Dr. Kristina Randle