It took me a very long time to learn to trust my therapist. Recently my trust has been shaken. It’s complicated but I feel like I have trouble making myself understood, and sometimes I feel like my therapist is patronizing me, and that my therapist is tolerating me rather than appreciating me. I got into the habit of emailing my therapist between appointments when I became anxious or melancholy, and my therapist would tell me that we could talk about it at my next appointment. I recognize that I have issues and things to work through, but when these issues come up I feel crowded, and I feel like I’m being pressed to change my viewpoint when I think I would like have room to think. Part of me doesn’t want to return to therapy. Part of me wants to go back, but if I did return I think I would like to tell my therapist: I think I need to be more careful about what I share. I recognize that I shouldn’t email my therapist between appointments, because its asking her to work for free and I should be able to deal with things myself. I want to take things slowly and ease back into therapy. What do you think?