Thank you for reaching out. From the information you indicated in your email to me, it appears the relationship might be beyond repair. If your husband is not at all willing or open to the idea of working through these issues then you will need to begin the process of moving on. If he is open to the idea, I would recommend attending couples therapy. Couples therapy will provide the two of you with a safe space to speak frankly about the state of your relationship and explore if it is possible that it could be salvaged. It is not likely that the entire issue lies with what occurred sexually in your relationship. If your husband told you that he was OK with the way things were and appeared supportive at the time, his reaction now is not consistent. It is possible that he was dishonest about his feelings before and that resentment has built up over the years. The blame does not all lie with you. I wish you the best of luck in moving forward in whichever direction is the most appropriate for you.