Your courage in trying to find a solution to these difficult, pressing issues is obvious in your email. You are doing the right thing by writing us here and looking for help. Your pain is matched by the bravery you bring to the situation in trying to cope. When I read your words I hear a person who, despite the ferocious difficulties in her life, has kept trying, searching for some relief, yet having great difficulty finding a place to receive it.
I encourage you to use our forums to make connections and find others who can support you in this quest — and to find a hospital where you can get treatment for these ailments. You reached out here and this is a very good step. It is time to connect with the forum and continue the search for a place that can help.