I’m not certain of your exact question so I will provide general advice. Your thoughts could be characterized as negative and fearful. It would suggest that you are unhappy. It’s common for teenagers to feel the way you have described.
You mentioned not having spoken to anyone about these issues and that is a mistake. It could be part of the problem. If you had, you would probably feel less overwhelmed.
Most teenagers would not want to have this type of talk with their parents but it may still be necessary.
Journaling might help. Research shows this to be a good way to organize your thoughts. It helps to clarify your thinking and it can be psychologically beneficial.
Journaling is good but it should not take the place of counseling. Counseling is the ideal solution to this problem. Many teenagers make assumptions about their parents and don’t give them a chance to help. You could tell them you want help without having to reveal too many details about what’s wrong. Give your parents a chance to help. Their reaction might surprise you. Thanks for your question. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle