Thank you for getting in touch. I am glad to hear that you are planning to find a therapist as I believe that will be very helpful to you. It sounds like you have been through quite a lot. Everyone processes traumatic experiences in different ways and it sounds as though it is possible that you have been distancing yourself emotionally for quite some time. While, as you stated, I am unable to give you a diagnosis, it does sound as though it is possible you are experiencing depressive related symptoms. Depression can manifest in a number of ways and look different among different individuals. Rather than being “emotionless,” it is likely that you are emotionally detached which is not uncommon after incurring psychological trauma. This is something that can certainly be worked on therapy and I encourage you to address these concerns with your therapist. Best of luck to you.