Your instinct to want to tell your doctor is a good one. It’s advantageous to be as forthcoming about your symptoms as possible. Once your doctor has the correct information about your symptoms, it will help him to better understand what might be wrong. Without that information, he might be inadvertently providing you with inappropriate treatments.
Regarding your doctor, you didn’t include information about his specialty. Hopefully it’s psychiatry. Many people are prescribed psychiatric medications by their primary care physicians but psychoactive medications are best prescribed by a psychiatrist. Psychiatrists are specialists in mental health and in the medications involved. They have a nuanced understanding of mental health conditions and treatments. They would be in the best position to treat your symptoms. If you’re not seeing a psychiatrist, you should be.
Counseling would also be beneficial. It would help you to stay grounded in reality. It’s a great source of guidance and support. Family counseling would have the added advantage of assisting and supporting your children. Research has shown that medication and psychotherapy are more effective than medication alone for most mental health conditions. The more support you have the better you will feel.
I’m sorry that this is happening to you. I understand your fears about asking for help but the symptoms you have described are highly treatable with the proper medication and or counseling. There is no reason to be frightened. Nothing bad will happen if you ask for help. Mental health professionals want to help and are trained to know what to do. Make it your priority to let your doctor know what is happening. That is the first step to properly addressing this issue. Don’t hesitate to write again if you have additional questions. I wish you the best of luck.
Dr. Kristina Randle