From the U.K.: The main issue that made me think I might have some problems is my incapacity to cry. I don’t even remember last time it happened (maybe more than 10 years ago). I never lose myself in memories and I am able to end a relationship (friends or partners) and never think again about them.
All the time I have to face new situations or meet new people I start getting anxious and if I can, I avoid the situation. I have friends and they rely on me a lot. I can listen to others and clearly understand the situations and give pieces of advice. I think this might be related to my childhood. Since I found out I was gay, I tried all that I could to hide this and not let people see it.
I moved to another city 5 years ago and all the times I go back home I avoid situations where I could meet people from the past. At work, I don’t have any problems and I actually even love working a lot more just to reach my targets. I have sexual problems and even if I approach with someone I am not able to go further or I directly avoid the situation, I believe this is due to the fact I am not self-confident of my body for some reason, even though people like me.
I constantly feel unsatisfied and emotionless, that’s the reason why I am going to leave for a new adventure or a new project, desperately trying to give a sense to my life. For some reason, I have this inner need of helping others and that fulfills me. I never had a great relationship with my parents in terms of dialogue, though I love them. I don’t speak at all with my brothers and from what I remember I never suffered a loss. For some reason, it’s like I am not able to suffer in terms of emotions. I am not able to understand if all these factors might be normal or needing help.
Hope in your advice